Journey

I’m asking myself, and asking to no one, wish this question could have an answer.

Am i being to sensitive, or is it me becoming your second choice, after your everything in life?

Cause sometimes, i feel like, you need me, when you got nothing to do in your day. When you think, its suppose to be like that, i’m thinking of, “okay, i should understand” like all the time. 

Maybe i should understand, you have some things to do. I understand. Even when sometimes i interrupt and wish i could stay with you that day. 

Maybe i should understand, you have friends, you need to play with them. I Understand. Even when i argue you. 

Maybe i should understand, you live with your family here, so you need to be with them when they wants you. I understand. Even when sometimes i am angry.

Maybe i should understand, you have a dream, you need to work on it. I understand.

Maybe i should understand, that stocks appear in your life, earlier than me. Well, i understand. You teach me how to play with them

Maybe i should understand, the way you think is always logical. I Understand. Even when sometimes i wish i could change it. 

From all of the things, i’m afraid i dont understand about my position, here in your life. In you bigger dreams, than just me. Like once you said, my priority is my dream. Like okay i understand that also. 

But, Maybe,

I should understand that i always come after the first priority in your life? Maybe, i’m just the second choice? After the distance? After the laziness? After everything thats in your mind?

Maybe, i should understand. Maybe.